|Fabric cut and waiting to be turned into a "The Kam" tote bag.|
As I was heading into my studio today to sew... in my pajamas, hair not brushed, and barefoot, it dawned on me that I should be documenting this part of my life. I recently turned 40 years old and I have been doing some reflecting on my life as it stands at this moment.
|It can get lonely but I have my best employee with me every day.|
I am were I want to be.
How often does that happen in someones life? I always wanted to be an artist, have a career, and have a cozy family that is happy. So I am thinking about my accomplishments - I have a masters degree in Social Work. I worked successfully in the field but when I had babies I knew I wanted to be a stay at home mom. I had seen how cruel people can be and I wanted to protect my children and give them the best start that I knew how.
My Mom worked on the family farm but somehow managed to be standing behind the kitchen counter when I walked in the door from school. She did her best to provide a loving environment and to let us know we were important in her life. I want to give that gift to my girls and I feel like I am successful. I admit, there are moments when I am the dreaded Helicopter Mom but that's okay. At least I recognize it and back off.
|My painting desk is a disaster. Sewing supplies are spilling over.|
I put off my dream of being an artist until now for many reasons. Initially I was focused on my career, then I was focused on my little ones, and the dedication of being a military wife takes a lot of my energy. I realized this year that I am ready to start my dream. It is a delicate balance between caring for my family, holding back my fear of failure, and deciding how I define my success.
|A stack of tote bag handles cut out and waiting to be ironed.|
|An hour of ironing and they are ready to be sewn.|
I think this morning was a success... in my pajamas with kids safely at school, a spouse on his way to work, and me ironing countless tote bag straps. A few months ago I started an on-line store, Poppy Cat Sews. It is a work in progress. Last week I entered a few paintings in an art show, and I am currently preparing for my first craft show. Being 40 years old is feeling good.